I realized last night why I haven’t been feeling sad about leaving here. All of the people I hang out with and talk to are quite upset about the fact that we won’t be seeing each other very often over the next few years. For some reason, I’m okay with that.

I haven’t ever really had a group of friends, or even a single friend, that I can honestly truly consider to be my best friend. It kinda sucks. I’ve relied more on my older sister to be there for me more than anyone else. And she’s there for me. Every time. No friend has ever been able to do that.

I just want to go to college and find that best friend that can be just like a sister. Is that too much to ask for?